We The Animals – Justin Torres

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image“We  wanted more.  We knocked the butt ends of our forks against the table, tapped are spoons against our empty bowls; we were hungry. We wanted more volume, more riots. We turned up the knob on the TV until our ears ached with the shouts of angry men. We wanted more music on the radio; we wanted beats, we wanted rock.  We wanted muscles on our skinny arms. We had bird bones, hollow and light, and we wanted more density, more weight. We were six matching hands, six stomping feet; we were brothers, boys, three little kings locked in a feud for more.

We wanted more flash, more blood, more warmth.

Always more, always hungrily scratching for more. But there were times, quiet moments, when our mother was sleeping, when she hadn’t slept for two days, and any noise, any stair creak, any shut door, any stifled laugh, any voice at all might wake her, those crystal, still mornings, when we wanted to protect her,  this confused goose of a woman, this stumbler, this gusher, with her backaches and headaches and her tired, tired ways, this uprooted Brooklyn creature, this tough talker,  always with tears when she told us she loved us, her mixed up love, her needy love, her warmth, those mornings when sunlight found the cracks in our blinds and laid it self down in crisp strips on our carpet,  those quiet mornings when we’d fix ourselves oatmeal and sprawl onto our stomachs with crayons and paper, with glass marbles that we were careful not to rattle, when  our mother was sleeping, when the air did not smell like sweat or breath or mold, when the air was still and light, those mornings when silence was our secret game and our gift and our sole accomplishment –  we wanted less : less weight, less work, less noise, less father, less muscles and skin and hair. We wanted nothing, just this, just this.”

 

 

Junkin’ with Johnny

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The Shrewsbury Flea Market: fill a box for $10. I dug through boxes of junk for 3 hours! Sadly the flea markets if you even call them that in New England suck compared to Florida.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In My Heart – Moby

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For Gary

I read Moby’s memoir yesterday, and put some of his songs on to go to sleep to last night. In My Heart was playing as I feel asleep, and I dream-heard it throughout the night, thinking about the person who is finding my heart.

“Lord, I want to be up in my heart
Lord, I want to be up in my heart
Lord, I want to be up in my heart
Lord, I want to be up in my heart

Be, ohh, just in my heart, oh Lord
Just in my heart, oh Lord
Be, ohh, just in my heart, oh Lord
Just in my heart, oh Lord”

Read more: Moby – In My Heart Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Porcelain – Moby (a memoir)

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I read Porcelain in one 4-hour bathtub inhalation yesterday, and mostly loved it. Moby’sstruggles to find work as a DJ and  his references to those first classic house tracks that I remember from my late teens pretty much smothered his petty irritants (his veganism, alcoholism and Christianity). Any DJ or dance music fan will love most of this memoir.

“Frankie Knuckles had invented house music, lived on the Lower East Side, and was deified. Junior Vasquez owned the floor at Sound Factory, where he played 12-hour sets and was a revered legend living in Chelsea. Danny Tenaglia was in the house music pantheon: he too played long remarkable sets and lived downtown. Larry Levan was a dance music god and he had just started a residency at Choice in the East Village. David Morales was seen as the biggest of the New York house music DJs: he owned the floor at Red Zone, and in an unconventional move, he lived in Midtown. Tony Humphries existed in a strange mythical realm of his own. His sets were long and legendary, his remixes were flawless, he lived in the unknown recesses of Newark, New Jersey.and was in residence at Zanzibar,”

The Girlfriend Experience

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Yasss Bitches! This is my big gay post of the week…I live for this show and Riley Keough lets them have it! So ridiculously good, the first episode is a bit slow but then you are living, right there with her…btw does Riley look familiar? Elvis’s oldest grandchild

Dear Zachary: A Letter to a Son About His Father

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I have never had a movie make me this emotional, I am bawling like a baby…please everyone watch this documentary tonight or as soon as possible! I really feel it was a bit life changing for me.

No Shame: Trans, Gay, Straight, Love

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My agency’s campaign this year is #NOSHAME which is about fighting stigma, raising awareness and celebrating our differences. I had the pleasure of meeting Alex, who is a brave ambassador for this year’s No Shame campaign as a member of the transgender community. In talking to him, I explained that throughout my life I never really had any family support, and that all of the great friends I have made have been my family. I encouraged him to find his true family in his friends and those who support him for the beautiful soul that he is! also thank you to all of the great friends that I have had over the years, who were my family and loved me at different points in my life !

Sing Street

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A great little movie for music lover’s everywhere, set in Ireland, also a sweet story about a boy’s first love. From the creative team of the Broadway hit Once…made me feel good and I sang along with our young hero.

The Green Room

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A great movie, dips into the Pacific Northwest music scene, has some killer pitbulls, lots of blood and mayhem, my future ex-husband Patrick Stewart as the villain…also one of Anton Yelchin’s last movies before he died.

The Champions (Michael Vick is shit)

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Just watched this great documentary, about the dogs that survived Michael Vick’s dogfighting ring. What a piece of shit he is, details from that time include him throwing his children’s small dogs in the ring to be killed and beating dogs’ heads into the concrete to kill them. All of the dogs in The Champions live with fear for the rest of their lives (the ones that animal control didn’t automatically kill). Two years after his prison release, he had signed a new $100 million dollar contract, re-signed with Nike and been given the keys to the city of Dallas..

Don’t Mind – Kent Jones

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She said, “Hola, ¿Como estás, she said, “Konichiwa.”
She said, “Pardon my French,” I said, “Bonjour Madame.”
Then she said, “Sak pase,” and I said, “N’ap boule.”
No matter where I go you know I love them all

 

Banshee

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One of my favorite shows…including Antony Starr and Ivana Milicevic, drag queen/computer hacker/ninja Job, tattoed hunk Kurt Bunker (if you like that kind of thing, and most women and gay men do, the hard as nails beauty Lili Simmons, and joining the cast is Eliza Dushku, who I love (who most gay men know from Buffy). Saving the best for last, the great love of my life Ulrich Thomsen is the super villain Kai Procter, who will kick yer ass! I love him soo much. John Jernigan-Thomsen